The First Time

Hi,

Here's part 3.

On Monday I was scared to death that he would try something while we were in school.

Because after everything that happend on Saturday we talked for about another hour via Whatsapp and literally talked about it all, what we wanted, what we felt and how we were gonna make it work. This conversation is way to long to put in here but believe me it was eye opening, really honest and reaffirming. But back to Monday thank god he didn't do anything. The rest of the week went by normally, I was busy with my sister her wedding so didn't have much time. On Friday I got home, my dad was laying in bed sick and he was in emo mood because he was listening to "Wish You Were Here". I got an idea and recorded a bit from the song and texted it to Him. Because Pink Floyd is his favorite band. That was the catalyst of me being a owl between him and my dad about music. Apparently they have the same music tastes. Who Knew? At one point my dad dissed him, because he had all the albums of The Alan Parsons. Then out of the blue dad said that he could have them if he came over with an usb stick. Low and behold after Diner he came over. Funny thing I told him that weekend that he wasn't allowed in my house by my mom. Mom wasn't home so he was lucky.

Well back to the story. He came inside and I gave him a small tour downstairs. Then he introduced himself to my dad. He was looking very dapper because for some reason he was wearing the blouse again but this time with a cardigan over it(note: no cap). When he and my dad started talking I zoned out. The talked about all kind of random music and stuff. At one point I thought he would get in bed with my dad. So funny. After half an hour my dad finally started transferring the music. So I gave him a tour of the rest of the house while it was transferring. I am still debating if I should show him my room but I did it(Boy did I regret that #JK). He first tripped over my closet size and how much stuff I have. Then he entered my room en literally looked through everything, opened every drawer and looked in every box. He even found THE box I got for my 18th birthday. He took everything out of the box and examined it. He wasn't impressed with it contents. Then he sat on my bed en started complaining it was to hard. At this point I was pretty fed up with him. So I decided it was safer for me on the ground in front of my bed than on it with him. We watched American Dad. All of a sudden he scooped my hair away and started his usual torture on my neck. I stood up and walked to the other side of the bed and said "Hell no we're not going there". "Ow Hell we will go there"was his response. "You'll have to catch me first, Sir" He walked up to me but I ran across the bed. He couldn't follow because he was still wearing his shoes. This round of "catch me if you can" went on for a bit until he said "Screw it I'm taking of my shoes" After that I didn't stand a chance. He got me, threw me on my bed and sat on top of me while restraining my arms. I could go anywhere he won. But getting me wasn't enough for him. He wanted to play and I knew it. His hand found my neck and he started his torture. He put his hand around my neck, right where my collarbone was and restrained me. Almost painful but I didn't want him to stop. He lowered his body on top of mine. His hands went in my hair. Then he slowly thrusted up against me. Holy Shit that felt good. He repeated it. I knew at that point I was way to far gone. He picked up in a slow maddening pace. I tried to take it as best as I could. First the zipper, then the warm hard flesh and then the distance. Everytime his zipper pressed against me I was on the edge of pleasure and pain. Which made me even more bothered. He pressed kisses over my collarbone. Slowly going down to the top of my breast and back up to my face. I wasn't capable of talking anymore. He kissed my nose. Al the while keeping up his slowly torturing thrusts. Then I heard his breath speed up as fast as mine. Hahahah he couldn't keep up his pokerface. He ask "Can you look at me?" "No" "Why not?" in the most innocent voice ever. "You know damn well why not"


That's all I can type for now qq

Lots of Love,
Xoxo
DD 

Late Night Chair Conversations

Hi,

As promised part to of the story. I don't know how many part it will have but I will try to keep it updated.

After I got home we started texting and talking about a lot of crap and random stuff. Then we both said it feels like we've know each other for years, not only just a week. By 5:30 am we were still talking. It was so weird for me, being so open with someone I just met. At one point we both got so tired and well asleep in the middle of the conversation.

The next day I had to work and had a show. So I was pretty busy and didn't really have time. After my show I started thinking about going to the city. My brother was in town with a bachelor party and I knew he was in town. For fun I bet one of my friends that if Heracles won I would go into town. Then they won and one of my friends texted she needed me so I had no more excuse not to go. I changed in to a dress(and something else;)) that something else was to tease him because he teased me the night before. I biked into town and the moment I passed the bar I saw my brother and the rest of the boys they immediately started yelling at me. I  kept cycling and after I parked my bike I went to them. They were already pretty wasted. I had a laugh with them when I got a text from him "where are you?" "I'm on the corridor from the bar" seconds later he walked around the corner. We went inside and sat at a table where his friend was already sitting. Apparently he was sitting right there. He was wearing a white shirt. I hadn't seen him in shirts before only t-shirts. So I thought he didn't wore them. It looked good though, made him more mature and manly. 

I'm Back!

Hi Everyone,

Let me start with apologizing. I'm sorry I've been gone so long. My life took quite a turn this spring and I had to re-think a lot. But Everything is cool again and I found the inspiration to write again.
I never actually stopped writing. I wrote for myself and I hope one day I can share all those stories I will try to tell some of them in this post and show some of the pictures I took(most of them will be selfies).

Let's begin with where I left of here on my blog. FYI I did try to keep vlogging so you can head of to my channel and check out the stuff that I did film. DDSCRAZYLIFE The last post on my blog was my birthday. Stuff was already a little messed up then but my birthday was amazing for once.
Soon after my birthday I had new shows and school so I was way to busy for it all. Then June came around and I had to fight for school. The fight didn't pay off I didn't get my P 0,1 short on a grade. The teacher said if you can't continuo because of my course I will give you that 0,1. But in the end he didn't think it was his grade. So I actually thought this was the end, my future gone and I almost slipped back in to my depression. Thank god this time I had the most amazing people around me who kept me alive. I want to give a big shout out to Asja for the late night calls and texts! A lot of crap happend after that and I had to figure out what I wanted with my life in the middle of it all. I asked for advice from the one teacher I always respected. She said go and audition for Artist. I did, the nerves almost killed me during the audition, but I put all I had in it and they loved it.
So to conclude it all that's where I am now. I'm fulltime studying theatre and it feels like the best decision I have ever made. From day one I felt at home. I love my class and I can be me with them.
There's a vlog up on my channel DDSCRAZYLIFE from our introduction day.

This is what I've been up to. I will try to keep weekly updates from now on.

Lots of Love
Xoxo
DD

Ps. More happend so keep reading if you want to know ;)




























The night off the introduction day I met up with a boy/man(he's not neither actually)
It started as friends and was really fun and stuff. Then we went inside the bar and shit got real.
We started talking about sex, each others preferences and other weird stuff, like the fact that I'm hyper sensitive and some spot on my skin are that sensitive I can come from just touching. We also accidentally had an heart to heart talk. Accidentally because we read each other notes on our phones and both forget we had written a lot of stuff in there. Then at around 3 am I knew I had to go home because otherwise stuff would happen I didn't think I was ready for. I said goodbye to him and we hugged, then his hand went up to my neck(which is one of those places) and my body reacted. I said no and went to get my bike. All of a sudden I hear my name and turn around. It's him apparently I dropped something in the bar and he gives it to me. My mind is racing, what does he want? omg is he going to kiss me? do I want him to kiss me? holy shit what am I going to do? We walk for a bit and then he hops on the back of my bike and grabs me, his hand in my neck on the right spot.

This is all for now if you want more leave a comment saying yes and I will post the rest next week.
xoxo

A Journey for Ladureé

Hi,

This year for my birthday I also wanted Ladureé so my mom and I went to Antwerp to get it.

For the vlog go to my youtube channel ddfm13

Here are the photo's I took.

The Craziest Night of The Year!

Hi,

Once a year we get to dress up as our wildest fantasy, get drunk and dance our asses of in a massive tent with a but load of strangers. We call it CARNAVAL. The best part of it all we can get away almost anything that night. Just say the next day a who cares it was Carnaval. This year I went all out. I went as Elsa from Frozen. Why? Because I love the movie and I do have her hair color. So I designed the dress from a video I found on youtube and had my mom make it. As usual I took a lot of pictures and this time I also tried to vlog some. Honestly I don't know if I will upload the footage because it is pretty messed up and I did some crazy stuff. Then again who gives a f*ck. But what I will do is post my pictures here and If I have time I will edit my get ready with me video.
So without any further or do here are the pictures.

My first Photoshoot

Hi,

Last week my to amazing friends took the time to take some amazing pictures of me for my blog, instagram, Youtube, twitter and tumblr. It was kinda scary because I have never posed like this and I'm not the most confident person even though I seem like that, deep down I'm not so it was quit the experience. Fortunately I had Anne and Elize who took the photo's and just made me feel at ease with the whole situation. I can honestly say now that it was pretty epic to do and I can't wait to do it again. I also know that I will always have some nerves but I just have to chill.

Having that said here are the pictures hope you like them. 

Londen, Shopping & Wicked

Hai,

Me and my sister went to London for 2 days. I vlogged it so I'm not gonna do a really long story about it only about the amazing we went to see Wicked! Here is the Vlog https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Cr8a4eqUpU but first some of the pictures I took.

My top 5 make-up favorites

Hai,

I'm gonna do something a little bit different. I love make-up and I want to share my love for it with you guys. Mostly I want to share my tips and tricks. I always have friends asking me how do you do your make-up? Can you do mine? or can you give me tips? Well starting from now on I'm gonna do a weekly make-up tip/trick here on my blog and in addition to that I'm gonna do tutorials on my Youtube Channel my favorite looks. I'm going to do this because I feel that make-up doesn't have to be hard and every women deserves to feel good about make-up. I know this is a bit of a change from my usual posts but beauty is a really big part of my life and I want to share it. This doesn't mean the other posts are gonna go away no not at all. It means I'm expanding, I'm letting you guys see more of my life. I hope this explains it a bit. If you have any question feel free to comment. 

I thought that a top 5 of my favorites would be a good way to start.

"Disclaimer"

These products are my favorites, so not everyone may agree. Also I bought all of these product my self and didn't get any for free. Some of these product are expensive and I know not everyone can effort them. 

Now let's begin!

One last time....?

Hai,

One last time, One last show that is what we usual say before going to 2 more shows.
Not this year, this year my 3 show was my last show. It was in Leiden and it was worth the travel and pain to get there.  I knew before the show started that I had to leave before it ended otherwise I wasn't gonna make it to the train station on time. So I'm sorry to say that I don't have official photo's this time and no after party selfie's but I did film a big chunk of the show so I will leave the link to my video down below. Also I have some pictures from the show which is kinda of new this year, previously it wasn't allowed to take pictures or film. Now having said all that let's get on with everything that happened. I was alone this show for different reasons which are not mine to tell. I know I always tell the whole story and want to be truthful but in this case I can't and that sucks and I really don't like it.