Best night ever

Let me start by saying I'm so happy we took the risk and went to schiedam.

It was totally worth it, I wouldn't wanna change a thing about this night

Every minute every seconds just awesome to the max.

Shall I start at the beginning as usual?

We went to the venue early so we could get our tickets and chill out a bit.

We got our tickets and went in to the theatre.

This time the theatre was build way better and we actually had fine seats.

The show started and after the first number the guys started pranking each other during their numbers.

It was so funny MK and I laughed our asses off.

I will make a list of all the pranks and put it in here.

So the rude boy number came and Matt walked in the audience all of a sudden he's standing next to me and I thought omg he's gonna pick me. Then he laughed and said no with his finger. I thought damn it you cheeky little bastard. A bit further in the show is the old time rock and roll song. During this one Dylan came up and danced with me.(might I add he wasn't such a gentlemen this time, like I mind:p). Further during the show nothing really happend with me or MK. 

So here is the list of pranks I can remember.

- flying like birds in their black coats

- the boys having stuff written on their 

- kris having really tiny pink undies

- bc eating pizaa during the show
- billy having a really small gun during men in black
- matt had a life crab in his bathtub(billy put it there)
- they threw towels at each other during bad girl
- matt went and sit in the audience for a while
- they had a crew member dress up as a woman and be the middle girl during the vampire act
- kris took a guy on stage during turn the page and when kevin came out, kris fell out off the coulisse laughing
- they put bricks in cody's suitcase and duck taped it
- they put beer in noah's sport bottle instead of water
- during get your freak on they threw light sticks at kevin
- they changed billy's voice to a high squeaky one during chipshot
- their crew came out and did y.m.c.a.
- during in the navy the two older crew guys came up with vacuums
- when matt was supossed to catch the football billy came out half naked and they wrestled for it
- dylan ripped of a normal shirt and threw it in the audience
- dean punched billy in the gut

and i think a lot of other crap happend but i can't remember it. so most of the show MK and i were laughing our asses of. I can honestly say it was of the best show i saw and i saw 9 so i think i can be a good judge. After the show it was official picture time. First we took our pic with matt, josh, vanya and yes this time also kevin. if you see the pic you might think asking kevin to join us wasn't a really good idea. But my moto is YOLO so i love this pic because i almost never laugh in pictures and kevin always finds a sneaky little way to make me laugh. if you can't she it in the pic i'm so not gonna tell you :D

then it was crazy picture time and damn this one exceeds all the others

i wish i could explain what happend but i don't have a f*cing clue what the hell happend

and for the first time this year we were ready in time to take a pic with the other three lovely boys.

look at the result

btw i do't know if i should say this but mister fifty shades his hands were gliding up my legs right before this pic was taken so thank god for my amazing pokerface. 

oke peeps so i just realized how long this blogs has gotten already and i made a desicion im gonna post another blog about saying goodbye to the guys and will post rest of al the pics

fiy i will wright it soon so it will be up tomorrow i think

lots of love

xoxo

D. 

always look on the bright side

let me start by saying i'm sorry i was kinda depressed last night and i couldn't see the good things that happened

good things did happen and i do wanna share them so here they come with the pictures to match

let's start at the beginning.

during the show the guys came in the audience as usual. 

but because we didn't have great seats they couldn't get to us. 

so i decided what the heck i'm gonna stand up and wave at josh(i already left my shame in castricum).

he saw me waving like i was on fire and MK who was standing next to me and a big smile appeared on his face.

after that MK and i thought screw the rest we will stand in the middle of the isle and dance like there is no tomorrow and like we know no shame.

that made the show so much more awesome, we danced, we laughed, we screamed even cried at some point.

i can honestly say it was one of the best shows if not the best.

of course we went and got our picture taken with guys.

it was my turn so i walked up to kevin i couldn't walk very good because of my brand new heels

so i told kevin that and like omg he said why don't you take them of and take of the rest as well and smirked

it made me blush

and i had to pull out my amazing pokerface for the picture

still blushing and a bit stunned i walk towards matt and josh

josh yells at me "daph get in here"

i realize now that the guy almost always yells at me it's gettin funnier everytime

josh hugged me after the picture and i went on to the picture with billy j and wally  

mister jeffrey put his hands on my waist and i was wearing a dress with cut outs on the sides so his gorgeous big, soft strong hands were touching my skin(and you know what touching does to me)

i can't rap my head around his hands being so soft and strong at the same time

and then there was kristopher davis 

i don't even know what the crazy bastard did but the picture is pretty damn weird

i suspect he was trying to make devil horns because he said earlier that he think am a badgirl 

(i did set the record straight on that topic but i don't think he believed me)

btw he hands were literately all over my ass and neck

enough said about the picture i will no longer keep you waiting

after the official picture part was over we went and waited in the lobby

and i talked to matt and i finally felt like i got to see the matt i met a year again and it was so nice

he truly is a good person and i adore him.

I felt so bad for him because he was really home sick and i god damn know that crappy feeling.

And i don't know how but he felt that i was in need of a hug and i knew he could use one too.

I don't wanna sound dumb or stupid or gay but that hug was probably the best hug i have ever gotten because it was timed so perfectly with out even having to say anything

so MATT YOU ARE A REAL AND GENUINE PERSON AND YOU'RE AMAZEBALLS! <3

FIY i know some of this stuff i already shared but it wasn't in the context it deserved

after matty josh came out and we had so much dumb fun about stupid crazy shit

it laughed my ass off

i think these pics speak for them selves but if they don't i'm not gonna give you any explanation

i saw cody and i told my self daphne don't be wimp and just walk up to him and ask if josh gave him his cupcake even if he hates you, you need to now if josh kept his word  

so i grabbed to bull by it's horns and walked up to him.

i say ""hi"(whoop whoop i said something without him hitting me)

and i go on "did josh gave you my cupcake?" and before cody could answer josh was there and he almost sounded offended "of course i gave him his cupcake" i thought oke josh relax

so i went on to talk to cody and asked what he thought of my cupcake he said "it was really good thank you for that"  and all of a sudden his face turned from the "i hate you look" to the "i kinda really like you look" and it caught me of guard i almost didn't know how to speak proper english. 

but i managed to talk and i thought an apology was the right thing to say. i said "i'm so sorry we made you wait on monday, and kinda kicked you out of the room" he was like "i don't even remember, it all kinda blurs together sometimes" and he smiled at me and for the first time his smile made my knees feel like jelly  

ow crap that's not a good thing

here is the picture we took together 

after cody i needed to make sure bc was still kinda keeping our dirty little secret so i talked to him

i loved hearing him say he was in love with my cupcakes and he also said  me and my cupcakes are a bad influence on the boys because they have way to much sugar in them. 

can you imagine little miss goody two shoes being a bad influence hahahah

we went on and took a picture together and damn he smelled good i was like fuck that really smells good

so not having any shame anymore i just said "you smell amazing what perfume are you wearing?" and funniest thing he wears hugo boss same as billy that perfume is just divine for man i decided then and there if i ever get a man my first gift will be that perfume.

i think this concludes all of the fun stuff we did(keeping some parts private as always)

and reading this back i realize be didn't have a crappy night

it was pretty damn amazing we just couldn't see it until i wrote it just now

i will speak to you guys so

xoxo

D.

what was supposed to be a great night

sometimes you have expectations and plans
usually i make sure everything goes the way i want
and everything goes according to plan
not this time
this time the big man upstairs messed it all up
everything was fine on Monday
we went to see them in castricum we had a few little hick-ups on the road but me made it there
and we had a nice cup of coffee(tea for me i don't drink coffee)
MK and i concluded that cody really hated us and it was all fine
then Thursday came and bad news came
í thought i could be strong and not let it ruin my night
i thought wrong, pretending to be strong just made the night worse
the show was nice and fun a always but they couldn't get to us in the audience because we had crappy seats
and the pictures where fun but not as exciting a usual i think they could feel i wasn't feeling good
after the show we waited for them in the lobby and we took some funny pic's
i'll post them later
i want to make a special shout out to matt he was so sweet to me and i think he felt i could use a hug
so thanks matt that hug really helped!<3
i found out cody doesn't hate me and he really liked my cupcake the last time(tnx josh for giving him his)
BC said my cupcakes are amazing but they're bad for them.
i promised him i would make a batch for schiedam because it's the end of the tour

we talked to the rest a little and then they kicked us out the theater so we went to the after party

Fiy i i'm a little pist off that i didn't get to see Kris after the show the basterd
which completely sucked because only vanya and BC showed up:(
then we just went back to our hotel and i thought what the heck why don't i just wright my blog right now
so here i am typing my blog hoping i would be doing something else
instead i'm feeling fucking sad and all i wanna do is go home and crawl in my bed and cry
i now that's not an option now
and i also Tuesday will make up for a lot but still i can't help but miss them already
they're sort of my forgetting potion and it feels like it didn't work this time
got damn it
i'm sorry if it is a bit depressing but that;s just how i feel right now
and life isn't always about sunshine and butterfly's 

xoxo

D.

feelings suck (sometimes)

i just need to type out my thoughts
how can i have fun when i miss someone?
i always feel guilty for being happy
like i don't deserve to be or like it's wrong to be.
i don't know how to change this feeling
people keep saying i don't have to feel like this
but they don't understand it's not a choice and i can't let the feeling go
everyday i wish i could
recently i decided i just had to life with it
that i would never go away
and i thought it helped
i even felt better for a little while
but now the feeling is back
and the moment i think the feeling is a wrong one
i feel worse like i just killed someone
i know no one has an answer
and i sort off made peace with that
but it still sucks
i wish that feeling was i switch i could turn off sometimes
because those got damn feelings just ruined my night
which was supposed to be one of the best nights of my life
so fuck feelings for now!

xoxo
D.