I'm Back!

Hi Everyone,

Let me start with apologizing. I'm sorry I've been gone so long. My life took quite a turn this spring and I had to re-think a lot. But Everything is cool again and I found the inspiration to write again.
I never actually stopped writing. I wrote for myself and I hope one day I can share all those stories I will try to tell some of them in this post and show some of the pictures I took(most of them will be selfies).

Let's begin with where I left of here on my blog. FYI I did try to keep vlogging so you can head of to my channel and check out the stuff that I did film. DDSCRAZYLIFE The last post on my blog was my birthday. Stuff was already a little messed up then but my birthday was amazing for once.
Soon after my birthday I had new shows and school so I was way to busy for it all. Then June came around and I had to fight for school. The fight didn't pay off I didn't get my P 0,1 short on a grade. The teacher said if you can't continuo because of my course I will give you that 0,1. But in the end he didn't think it was his grade. So I actually thought this was the end, my future gone and I almost slipped back in to my depression. Thank god this time I had the most amazing people around me who kept me alive. I want to give a big shout out to Asja for the late night calls and texts! A lot of crap happend after that and I had to figure out what I wanted with my life in the middle of it all. I asked for advice from the one teacher I always respected. She said go and audition for Artist. I did, the nerves almost killed me during the audition, but I put all I had in it and they loved it.
So to conclude it all that's where I am now. I'm fulltime studying theatre and it feels like the best decision I have ever made. From day one I felt at home. I love my class and I can be me with them.
There's a vlog up on my channel DDSCRAZYLIFE from our introduction day.

This is what I've been up to. I will try to keep weekly updates from now on.

Lots of Love
Xoxo
DD

Ps. More happend so keep reading if you want to know ;)




























The night off the introduction day I met up with a boy/man(he's not neither actually)
It started as friends and was really fun and stuff. Then we went inside the bar and shit got real.
We started talking about sex, each others preferences and other weird stuff, like the fact that I'm hyper sensitive and some spot on my skin are that sensitive I can come from just touching. We also accidentally had an heart to heart talk. Accidentally because we read each other notes on our phones and both forget we had written a lot of stuff in there. Then at around 3 am I knew I had to go home because otherwise stuff would happen I didn't think I was ready for. I said goodbye to him and we hugged, then his hand went up to my neck(which is one of those places) and my body reacted. I said no and went to get my bike. All of a sudden I hear my name and turn around. It's him apparently I dropped something in the bar and he gives it to me. My mind is racing, what does he want? omg is he going to kiss me? do I want him to kiss me? holy shit what am I going to do? We walk for a bit and then he hops on the back of my bike and grabs me, his hand in my neck on the right spot.

This is all for now if you want more leave a comment saying yes and I will post the rest next week.
xoxo

One last time....?

Hai,

One last time, One last show that is what we usual say before going to 2 more shows.
Not this year, this year my 3 show was my last show. It was in Leiden and it was worth the travel and pain to get there.  I knew before the show started that I had to leave before it ended otherwise I wasn't gonna make it to the train station on time. So I'm sorry to say that I don't have official photo's this time and no after party selfie's but I did film a big chunk of the show so I will leave the link to my video down below. Also I have some pictures from the show which is kinda of new this year, previously it wasn't allowed to take pictures or film. Now having said all that let's get on with everything that happened. I was alone this show for different reasons which are not mine to tell. I know I always tell the whole story and want to be truthful but in this case I can't and that sucks and I really don't like it.

My dream came true

Hai lovely's,

The musical is done, over, finito, the end.  Let me just start by saying it was amazing, the best thing ever truly a dream come true words will never be able to describe how awesome it was. That out of the way I wanna tell you guys about the whole experience. But that will take a million year so I'm gonna add in pictures and try to tell the story behind some of them. Also I will post all of the link for my vlogs so you can see what happens on set everyday. First the backstage pictures from the rehearsal and the shows. 

These two pictures were taken during our rehearsals. Sam and I were really exhausted and needed some sort or form of rest so we decided to claim the tables(which are set pieces) and we took a little nap. We didn't think we would get caught. I do think the nap help us so I don't care.

The goodbye

hey,

So i know i promised to post this a month ago but i just couldn't it was just to hard. 

And i admit it's still hard but i wanna do it so here goes.

I promised bc and matt i would bake cupcakes so i did. 

and here are the reactions of everyone

- Kevin couldn't stop hugging and kissing me.

- Noah looked like a kid on Christmas morning.

- Kris just ripped of the paper cup and put the whole thing in his mouth and then he shouted "this girl bakes the most amazing cupcakes ever" ALL the women looked at me with envy.

- BC hugged me like a bear and started eating right away.

- Vanya was like i love these, i need to take a pic and post it onInstagram. 

- Cody smiled so sweet it made me blush and i felt really shy.

- Josh hugged me so hard i think i cracked a rib.

- Matt later said he loved it and that is was amazing again.

- Billy was really happy and after he ate it he was like "they get better everytime"

then the first goodbyes