i just need to type out my thoughts
how can i have fun when i miss someone?
i always feel guilty for being happy
like i don't deserve to be or like it's wrong to be.
i don't know how to change this feeling
people keep saying i don't have to feel like this
but they don't understand it's not a choice and i can't let the feeling go
everyday i wish i could
recently i decided i just had to life with it
that i would never go away
and i thought it helped
i even felt better for a little while
but now the feeling is back
and the moment i think the feeling is a wrong one
i feel worse like i just killed someone
i know no one has an answer
and i sort off made peace with that
but it still sucks
i wish that feeling was i switch i could turn off sometimes
because those got damn feelings just ruined my night
which was supposed to be one of the best nights of my life
so fuck feelings for now!
xoxo
D.
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